I was able to manage spending Friday and saberdei night at home ALONE…the kids were invited for a 2 night sleepover with some of my cousins.. (as usual the invite doesn’t include the mother hahaha well not that it matters) I thought I could work on my pending articles since its near deadline already. I was thinking I could finish everything since there will be no distractions this time.. no commercial breaks (prepare food for kids, play with them etc etc) I have the whole house to myself for 3 days and two nights, imagine what I could accomplish with those time in hand. Come Friday aftie, cousin fetch the kids and the yaya.. I went home to an empty house, feeling the feel of solitude, savoring serenity that only happens once in a blue moon when the rascals are away. I settled myself, fixed myself a sandwich and coffee for dinner (diet kuno) made a list of the articles I needed to do, I needed to finish before this and that date comes..so, I came up with this twenty something to do list in 2days… having this positive thinking that ill be able to finish everything and will have extra time to relax a bit.. read a book or watch tv.. as it turns out, I wasn’t able to do anything in that freakin list.. Friday night, after making the list, I decided to take a nap and woke up a bit later to do my thing, thinking that ill surely have difficulty with my connection because of loser connection (globe tattoo)., what happened was, when my head hit the pillows, I immediately drifted off to dreamworld.. woke up around 3:30 am.. tried connecting.. Bingo! Connected.. chatted a bit with Super Balentong.. for about 15-20 minutes.. when he logged out, that’s when I started with my work.. the problem was.. im havin this so called writer’s block (kuno hahaha) no ideas at all.zilch.nada.zero. so I turned off my computer, made a cup of coffee while sorting through our laundry. It was a rainy saberdei morning that time.. since ive got tons of dirty clothes to wash, I decided to bring everything to my lowlah’s house to use her washing machine. And its really raining really hard that time which will make it impossible for me to let it dry outside.. so I brought everything to granny’s house and had the househelp washed it for me(TAMAD) , while I sit and read my book.. damn! Nothing registers.. even the book im reading… went back home.. went online.. I was online the whole day doing nothing productive.. not a single sentence for my article. Not a single word for it. I just chatted and fooled around with Marco online and through text. Since i promised SB i wouldnt bother him with this “quality time” weekend.. i stopped myself from texting him hahahahaha Hahaha that evening, I was able to finish a book. (not thoroughly understanding what its all about, might have to re-read it soon) Sunday..went to church (naks) did my groceries… went home then prepared lunch.. kids were due to arrive that day.. they reached the house just an hour after lunch.. we all had lunch together they took their aftie nap and i… still, nothing productive.. after 2 hours of religiously doing nothing at all
Ive been tagged… I was asked by ms. Rosemarie of rainbowbox to write down ten things I hate about myself. …and so here goes the ten stupid things I hate about ME….(tama na english.. internal hemorrhage na utak ko taenang yan! Hahahaha)
– Masyado akong clingy. Uber-uber attachment to the point na feeling ko eh kapag minsang lumayo alng ng kaunti ung tao ng hindi sinasadya iniisip ko na na inaabandona na ako.
– Isama na rin ditto ang pintasera. Kung makapamintas ako kala mo namna kung sino kong kagandahan. Basta may Makita mga mata ko na kapuna-puna.. taena! Mata lang niya ang walang pintas mula saken.. at wala rin akong pakialam kung marinig niya mismo.. sasabihin ko kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin.
3. WALANG HIYA
– Minsan naiisip ko n asana may nabibilhan neto. Kase ba naman.. feeling ko wala akong kahiya-hiya ni katiting sa katawa. Nung nagsabog yata si Papa God neto eh tulog ng tulog ako. Hindi ako nahihyang magtanong. Hindi ako nahihiyang magsalita.
– Aym iskeyrd of da dark (pwera na lang kung…hmmmm alam na! hahahaha) en aym iskeyrd of ghosts. Tnt (tawa ng tawa) sobrang mattakutin ako.. minsan sobrang Malaya kung gumana ang imahinasyon ko na alam ko rin na tinatakot ko na lang ang sarili ko..
5. CLINGY SA PAST
– Sabi nga nila there’s no use crying over spilled milk. Ako, that’s what I do. Although most of the time sinasabi ko sa mga tao na ok lang ako.. nakalimutan ko nay un, hinayaan ko nay un.. di un totoo. Nagsisinungaling lang ako. Ang totoo nyan, I couldn’t let go. (or baka din kase, I don’t wanna let go …*sad*)
– Mahilig akong magexperiment ng kung ano-anong pagkain. Minsan edible.. kadalasan hindi hahahaha.. may time pa nga na kahit aso, inayawan ung experiment ko.
7. CRY BABY
– Nakakainis ung sobrang pagiging emotional ko. Magkaron lang ng nakkatouch na eksena sa pinapanuod ko, or may eksena na nakkatouch din sa mga binabasa ko, anubeh at maya-maya matatagpuan ko na lang ang sarili kong nagpapahid ng mga lumandas na luha mula sa aking mga mata.. sabay *singhot*
8. I EASILY FALL
– Madaling mahulog ang loob ko… paksyet.. un naman palang kinahuhulugan ko doesn’t intend to catch me naman pala.. ang siste.. nalalaglag ako at nasasaktan on my own doing.
-madalas nasosobrahan na rin ako sa sarili ko sa pagiging madaldal hahaha I couldn’t seem to stop myself from talking… minsan pa nga dahil sa kawalan ng makakausap, napipilitan akong daldalin ung sarili ko sa harap gn salamin.. pero tinigilan ko din.. napagisip-isip kong hindi magandang habit yun hahahaha I might end up much crazier than I am now hahahaha
10. WALA PA KO MAISIP….. for now, yan na lang muna..
There goes the ten things I hate about myself.. thanks for the tag rosemarie.. now, im thinking kung ipapasa ko tong tag na to or hindi… hmmmmmm cge na nga.. at shempre, una sa listahan si….. dan dara-ran!!!!!! Hahahaha dalawa lang ang ita-tag ko.. ispeysyal fifol kase sila hahahahaha
tama na nga tong kalokohan na toh.. hahahahaha